Baby Joey – 11 months old!

How can it be that we’re in the final month of his first year?  They say it goes by so fast and I can confirm that we just came home from the hospital and I blinked and now have an 11 month old.  It’s insane.

This month has been insane.  Still only have 2 bottom teeth but there are 4 on the top and one more on the bottom that are so close…I hope they all come at once so he doesn’t have to keep dealing with the pain of breaking teeth.

He’s completely independent when it comes to meal time.  He wants to eat what we eat, and boy does he eat.  He’s come so far with meal time just in the last 2 weeks…I’m impressed.  He also tries and keeps trying much more than if I were to try to feed him.  He is quite adventurous when it comes to food.

Also, are you sitting for this one?  Because you should be.  He started walking this week.  (WAIT, WHAT?!) Yes.  Walking.  He takes up to a dozen steps at a time now.  If he is calm and does it on his own he is really REALLY good…when I call him he gets super excited and runs and usually falls on the 6th or 7th step.  But it is all he wants to do now is keep on trying, he has no fear even when he tumbles.  He’s going to be running by his birthday.  I can’t believe I have a walking baby.

He’s also very talkative and has expanded his verbal communication yet again.  His words last month included: mama, dada, baba, gaga, nana (no) and have expanded this month to include: poppop, anna (Illiana, his favorite teacher), and dat (while pointing…meaning “what’s that?”).  It sounded like he said wawa the other day but I am not going to count that until he repeats it again and uses it correctly so for now our count is officially 8 words at 11 months old.  Crazy.

He absolutely loves his signing dvds.  He can care less about what is going on inside the TV unless there is a signing dvd on.

He loves dancing.  Play some music and he bounces.  It’s hilarious.

I can’t believe my little starfish walker is 11 months old… I can’t wait to see how much he develops in this last month of his first year.  My baby boy is getting so big!!

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What my 9 month old really wants for Christmas…

I was inspired by an article I read on huffington post to showcase what my 9 month old son really wants for Christmas.  

You can view this article Here

I stuck to a very small and simple list of gifts for my 9 month old because he is truly entertained by everything except what is purchased specifically for him, especially items that don’t cost anything at all.

If Joey were to write a Christmas list to Santa of the top 10 items he wishes for it would include:

1. This pack of tissues he has been playing with for the past 3 weeks.  

   
 
2.  This glittery ornament.

 
3.  The back of the dining room chairs.  

 
4.  The only spec on the table.

 
5. These boxes 

  
6. The vent in the hall (and of course the edge of the carpet too…let’s call this a combo gift)

  
7. The cats food and water bowls

  
8. Whatever is under the table (usually nothing, sometimes a cat)

  
9. Any kitchen drawer

  
10. This big shiny drawer of coldness

   
 
Now I challenge you, if your infant or toddler could write a letter to Santa of the top 10 items s/he wishes for Christmas, what would it include? 

Merry Christmas xoxo

Baby Joey – 8 Months

Sorry this is 4 days late but it’s been a crazy week here on the home front.  We’ve been going through a full heater install, with duct work and all, and a whole house humidifier and air purifier.

We visited pop pop on his 8 month birthday in Philly.

These last 8 months just blew by and this little guy is a real mover now.  He’s been crawling for a couple weeks but he’s super fast now.  The cats underestimate his speed and it is pretty funny when they get caught!  I’m giving him his space to figure out things but intervening when I sense he could get hurt.  He’s a champion sitter and can seamlessly transition from sitting to crawling but he still has some tendencies to topple over when he gets excited.  As long as he is not near anything that can hurt him I let him go (if it is not on hardwood floor, that is) so he knows he has to control his movements to prevent the topple.

He started 2 days/week at a daycare that also is a learning center and has already started his permanent educational record which is pretty freaking cool.  Everyone at the facility is very nice and he took a liking to all of them really quick.  There is one little girl in his class that he just loves, too.  Her name is Madison.  He doesn’t wave goodbye to anyone but he waves goodbye to her.

He’s been doing awesome with his food, he’s up to 4 solid meals each day, cereal, fruit, vegetable, cereal with bananas.  I think he had another growth spurt because he just feels so much heavier in the last week and a half and he’s been sleeping a lot.  He seems a tad taller too (which, seriously, I have a toddler not an 8 month old.  He’s in 12 month clothes and I don’t think that is going to last long…)

We started the transition off of Nutramigen.  We are very very slowly introducing GentleEase which has the lactose broken down, just not nearly as much as the Nutramigen so it is definitely a step up.  Last week we did a whole week of 20% GentleEase, 80% Nutramigen with no issues so we moved up to 40% & 60% this week with no issues so far.  We will keep increasing by 20% until he is fully weaned off of it but I have a lot of hope that this is finally happening after several failed attempts.  I think he is old enough, big enough, and functional enough at this point where his body can handle the transition.

Other than that he is just his typical happy self with (still) no teeth. LOL.  I have a feeling this next month is just going to fly by but I also can’t wait for his first Christmas.  We are putting the tree up on Friday 🙂  Can’t wait!

   

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

Baby Joey – 7 months

I feel like I always start these posts with “wow what a busy month it has been” but truly that is definitely the case with Baby Joey’s sixth month.  Since turning 6 months we packed up everything we owned, fit it on a 26 foot truck, a 10 foot truck, another 10 foot truck, and 4 FULL car loads (no lie…), and made the 130 mile move north to Waverly Township in our new home.  When I tell you that these trucks were packed top to bottom utilizing all of the vertical space, I am not lying.  I cannot believe how much stuff we have.  It definitely doesn’t look like that when you look at the house but there was so much…and it is almost finally all put away!

I made my trip up to the new house with a packed car, 2 cats, and the baby on a Friday morning.  Unfortunately he had a stomach virus the week of the move and we had a full 10 days of poo every hour on the hour.  At least we prevented diaper rash by acting quick with the triple paste and using warm rags in lieu of wipes…last time he was so raw and I felt so bad for how much pain he was in.  The first 1 1/2 hours of the trip flew by with lots of cries from the cats but a silent baby…that all ended in the last 30 minutes when he started screaming so loud.  I couldn’t concentrate.  I called my mother to meet me at the new house and the phone disconnected and all she heard was half hour and screaming so she darted to the new house to meet me and laid a blanket on the floor since she knew there was bound to be a poo…there was.  I called my husband to just talk to me as my anxiety was pretty bad at this point and he advised that I pull over and change him but I hadn’t a clue where any of his bags were and I had no where in the car to change him since it was packed.  I decided to pull over at the toll booth and give him a binky and tell him we were almost home.  He calmed down enough for me to feel comfortable and keep going and he screamed the last 10 miles of the journey until we pulled up in the new driveway where he decided that’s when he was done.  I rushed him inside, changed his diaper, and introduced him to his new home.

He’s done a lot of learning this last month, too.  In addition to “dada” and only saying “mama” when he was upset he now says “mama” quite frequently to gain my attention, he can also say “baba” and I swear he is saying “more” when he eats and he gives me the sign for more…but it’s more like “maaaaaa” as he’s doing the sign lol.  He can sign both “more” and “mama” and discovered he can clap like an excited member of an audience cheering on their favorite artist!  He’s still a very tall and skinny man wearing size 12 months clothes because he is so long but only just recently moving up to size 3 diaper since he has such a tiny waist and hiney!  We are currently getting his records transferred from his old doctor to his new one since he had to skip his flu shot when he was sick so we need to get that going immediately especially if we are in search of a daycare to get him out and active 1 day each week (and so mommy can have a break of triple duty of baby, work, and school!).

He’s sitting up by himself although doesn’t understand sometimes he has to actively keep himself up or he will fall…he is awesome at sitting I just wouldn’t call him functional just yet…have a little more learning to do before that but I’ve seen pivots with his arms recently so we are on our way to functional sitting!  He scooches just a tad but I think that will turn into crawling quite quickly as the little butt is going directly in the air to try to help out the scooch.  He can hold himself up in a standing position with the assistance of furniture…watch out!  He loves his walker.  He loves his jumper.  If he could walk and jump all day I think he would…this boy has energy.  He loves belly sleeping and can sleep 10-11 hours at night on his belly.

His pop pop misses him and is coming up for a visit this weekend to go to his very first visit to a pumpkin patch!  The baby also got to experience his first snow this past Saturday.

I can’t believe how jam packed this month actually was but there was a lot of moving and developing going on and I can’t wait to see what the next month brings, although I do wish time would pause for a little while so I can enjoy all of these milestones before they continue to whiz by.  Oh and those who are still on tooth watch, you’re still going to have to wait.  STILL no teeth although we keep swearing he’s on the verge of busting one out…I can see it, he can feel it, and I feel bad it hurts him but they NEED to come out…so teeth, if you can hear me…man up and come out.

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Baby Joey – 6 months!

On September 21st at 7:22pm, our little rainbow baby will be 6 months old. One half of a year old.  Where did the time go?  My little baby is a little man.  I just can’t believe it.

This passed month has been crazy.  The house we were under contract for fell through, the sellers decided to pull out of the deal which was devastating.  That same week we were a part of my best friend’s wedding (Joey’s godmother) and that same weekend we went up north to house hunt again and found a new house that we are settling on in, hopefully, 9 days!  This house is perfect and I can’t wait to watch Joe and our little man transform this house into our home by putting our little touches on it.

Joey has been a blessing, as always.  Still no teeth but I can’t imagine we are going to wait much longer since his gums are so hard and he’s just been chewing on everything and there’s non stop drool.  He’s also been pulling at his ears and rubbing his face a lot so I think we are on the verge.  I also think he’s going to sprout a couple at once just based on how hard his gums are and how white they are.

We are great with sitting, the back is no longer arched and he sits straight up, just have to work on balance as he is not yet an independent sitter and we have to keep an eye on him.  He can do sit ups if we hold his legs so the upper body is definitely gaining a ton of strength.

Standing is another story, still great at that.  I can actually hold just his hips now and he has great balance with his upper body.  He’ll stand holding a couch, too, he just ends up eating the couch lol.

Thursday we have a doctor’s appointment where we will get his height, weight, and more shots.  He’s so tall…I can’t wait to hear what percentile he is now.  He’s a tall bean pole.

We had a fever scare last week when he woke up around midnight with a 102 fever and a few days later I had the equivalent of a 105 fever.  The fever broke in under 2 days but no other major symptoms.  He had hives on his legs a few weeks ago but it went away quickly while I was covered head to toe in hives for 2 weeks and it didn’t go away until I had a high fever.  I am unsure if the two are related…

He has been saying “dada” for over a month now and he said “mama” twice now.  He won’t repeat it, though.  He is good with his b’s, too and has said “baba” but we don’t call his bottle that so I think it was purely accidental.  

We are on the verge of crawling.  He is able to inch when he wants to but he ends up getting super frustrated because he is not getting where he wants to go quick enough.  He is great at push ups and has been starting to pull his legs under his body and putting his butt in the air so I think crawling is definitely really close.  

The little dude is really impressive to us just crushing all of his milestones well ahead of time so we are definitely extremely proud of this guy.  We push him and he loves it.  We want to see him use his brain to its fullest potential and starting young is key.  Although I am desperate to push the pause button on life, I am so excited to watch him learn and grow.  I just love watching his face as he discovers something new.  It makes my heart swell.

Happy half birthday, my little man.  Daddy and I love you so much.  I can’t wait to begin our new life up north ❤️

   
    
 

July 24, 2014 & March 21, 2015 – two dates that changed my life forever

I don’t talk about this much ever since it was such a life changing experience, but looking death in the face has changed me.  Many people do not know that right after the birth of baby Joey I had an internal hemorrhage so bad I almost bled out.  They rushed me away and left Joe and my mother in a room covered in my blood that was described to me as looking like a murder scene with a nurse stating they would do their best to save me.

I felt my life pouring out of me.  I kept falling in and out of consciousness.  I was so cold.  At one point I closed my eyes as they were working on me and putting a line in for a transfusion.  I had a vision of my angels.  They were so cute.  My BOB was the exact image of Joey as he looks right now and I keep thinking of how he is just how I dreamed.   My perfect little angel.

Our angels were looking out for us that night.  They told me to go home and meet my baby.  They watched after Joey in the NiCU.

I remember waking up cold and confused thinking I can’t NOT fight for something I’ve worked so hard to get.  I pushed myself to respond to the staff of doctors as they were prepping me for emergency surgery.  I remember praying to God that he allow me to stay with my new little family.  All of a sudden, I felt at peace.  My doctor waited and said the bleeding had stopped and to hold off on the surgery until she could assess the situation.  A few minutes later she was certain they had the bleeding under control and she said how close I was to, at the very minimum, losing my uterus.

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of being reintroduced to our last frozen embryo so I felt the need to share why I will fight as hard as I possibly can for my child.  It is not only because he has been the one thing we wanted through 5 years on fertility treatments but also the one thing that made me fight for my own life.  I promise to give this little man the best I can give him, forever and always.

xoxo

Baby Joey Embryo


  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

6 days before

3/21/2015 - 7:22pm, our son is born

3/21/2015 – 7:22pm, our son is born

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3.5 Month update

Have you ever felt like the days were all meshing together and it was just one long crazy day of everything crammed all into one thousand hour day?  That’s been my life lately.  School started up again last week and the days are somehow melding together.  So much so that I am literally forgetting what day it is.  With work being super busy because of the move and the new hires being not totally up to speed, I’ve been putting almost 60 hours a week in, while taking care of my son, and NOW I have returned to my graduate program!

Some call me crazy…but you know what?  I’m determined probably crazy.  Certifiable at that.  Thank God for Joe, though.  He’s been trying to find ways to keep baby entertained in the evening so I can get my school work done and take a shower so I don’t stink!  He’s out with him right now, as a matter of fact, and I finished today’s school work early enough to quickly write a blog post!  (Thanks Joseph!!)

I must say, the baby has been so great with this transition to almost 100% working from home.  He adheres strictly to his schedule and I can actually set a clock to how perfectly he does!  3 hours on the nose between feedings.  Half hour nap between each feeding with the exception of his second feeding where he’ll take a nice 2 hour nap, play time before and after bottle, tummy time about an hour before feedings (to work out any extra gas, or puke, and obviously to strengthen his muscles), Zantac 3x day and prune juice twice a day.  His poops are becoming more regular now.  His reflux is under control.  His feedings have been upped in ounces to now 6oz (after it is all mixed up).  He has transitioned almost fully to Gentlease from Nutramigen as it doesn’t appear to be affecting his reflux now that he’s more active and his tummy muscles are so strong.  His colic has drastically reduced.  Teething is eminent as there is so. much. drool.  I actually just ordered him a baltic amber necklace as I have some friends who shared personal stories and I am just convinced to at least give it a try…there’s no harm in trying especially if it makes for a more pleasant baby!

I just wanted to give you all an update…I didn’t disappear, I am just a little loco with how busy my schedule is!  Only a year and a half more of this triple duty and then I can start paving way for our baby to have everything he could ever want.  He is the light of our lives and deserves everything we can give him.

xoxox

Here’s some more pictures of the many faces of Joey to enjoy until I can write again 🙂


  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

My boy has godparents 

I haven’t had much time to post with the move at work and Joey needing so much attention because of his reflux but I wanted to share a couple pictures of his baptism.  I am in the bath on my phone so this is a little jumbled, I promise to pretty it up at some point when I can hop on the computer for personal use but I don’t know when that will be!!  A full time working accountant momager makes finding personal time pretty difficult!  Adding school in the mix in 3 weeks is only going to make it more strenuous but a mom’s gotta do what a mom’s gotta do to make big strides in making a better life for this little family!! 

Much love to my mother for taking pictures and not being in a single one. We will have plenty of celebrations for her to be in them though…she is a HUGE part of Joey’s life and counts down the minutes until she can see her little man again!!
   
     

Preparing for the get together afterwards was a little difficult because Joseph (hubby!) was sick but this mama got it alllll done in time!  All with the help of the k’tan!

  

Finally…here’s some pictures of the many faces of Joey and the last weekend we spent just hanging at his very first attendance at a birthday party!

   
                                        
I am trying my hardest to keep this updated!!  We have a follow up reflux appointment in 2 weeks so we are hoping things will improve with him (comfort wise) soon…until then they don’t want to increase his medication until the follow up.
Xoxo 

Baby Joey – 2 month update

So I officially have a 2 month old…I could cry!  I just want time to stop so I can enjoy it, it is going by way too quickly!

Developmentally, he is crazy advanced!  He’s smiling as a reaction now and not because he is sleeping or gassy and lets out a cute little squeal when he has a big smile on, he’s following me with his eyes and follows objects as well.  He can pick my voice out and look in my direction even when there’s a lot going on.  At day care he was sound asleep and I walked in and started talking and he immediately woke up and looked for me…it was freaking adorable.  He’s reaching for objects and batting at them.  His leg muscles are great and wants to stand up a lot.  He is holding his head up high and very steady.  He rolled from belly to back!  He’s finding his voice and playing with it.  He’s starting to explore with his mouth, the kid licks everything.  I just bought a necklace that’s safe for babyies so he can play with it while I hold him and I don’t have to worry about keeping it away from his mouth.  He’s grabbing and holding onto things (re: have to buy a baby safe necklace for this reason, too!).  The list just grows and grows every day with things he’s learning.  I’m proud of his smarts!  He’s also so much more alert and stays up for a few hours at a time now.  I try to give him tummy time when he’s awake and happy as much as possible, but it can only be done in small stints being a reflux baby…

His weight is currently 11lb 5.5oz and he’s now 23.5 inches tall.  His weight puts him in the 44th percentile and height he’s at 73% (I believe).  His head measured 15 but I forget what percentile he was placed in for that…but he’s following the curve nicely!

We are still having reflux issues and I have a feeling they are going to up his dosage for zantac at the follow up appointment but for now we have to deal with the spit up as they didn’t recommend changing anything until the next appointment on June 16th.

The poor baby got 4 shots yesterday at his appointment and will be getting 4 more shots in 2 months at his 4 month appointment.  He was sore and cranky after that so we gave him a little tylenol after his 7 o’clock bottle and it helped his ouch legs and made him more comfortable…he was also feeling a little warm which they said would be normal having a low grade fever with the vaccines.  He seems to be much better today, but he is at day care and has been changed into new clothing so I’m wondering if it was a blow out or a spit up issue.

Joey teaches us life lessons all the time…the one he did yesterday was NEVER under ANY circumstances leave the house without an overly stocked diaper bag.  We took him to his appointment expecting to be out of the house for an hour with 3 diapers, wipes, 2 burp rags, a swaddle blanket, and a disposable changing pad.  That’s it.  In the waiting room, sitting in his car seat he had a massive blow out.  MASSIVE.  We had no spare clothes and Joe ran out of wipes as he was cleaning him up.  The burp rags were dirty as well.  OMG.  Good thing we brought a blanket and I had a sweater on that we draped over him in the car seat when we were leaving because otherwise he’d be naked…and it was chilly out.  I will NEVER leave the house without no less than a fully stocked nursery in my bag.  I can’t risk that anymore! LOL.

We have a sleeper, too!  He’s been sleeping great, there’s times we have to wake him up because we need to get him ready for daycare so I think he’d sleep even longer than what he has been if we just didn’t bother him.  I’m going to test that theory out this weekend but we have gotten 7 hour stretches out of him which is absolutely amazing.

There’s been a lot of craziness at home and it has been making me feel pretty isolated and lonely but some of my family is coming up for his christening this weekend so that should help for a little bit.  We are trying to keep it a very small get together because of the craziness and my anxiety/PPD so only immediate family and very close friends have been invited to keep my nerves in check.  This is the longest stretch of time my mom has been separated from the baby since he was born so I have to be careful not to get trampled by her when she comes bolting through my door on Sunday morning!  lol.

Here’s a couple pictures I took of him yesterday on his 2 month anniversary of tearing apart my lady parts!  He’s too adorable – he makes my heart melt! ❤

I'm 2 months old!

I’m 2 months old!

Every time I put the camera to my face he looks at me like I'm an alien LOL

Every time I put the camera to my face he looks at me like I’m an alien LOL

Caught a smile as he was ripping off his sticker!

Caught a smile as he was ripping off his sticker!

Mother’s Day reflection – here’s to the infertiles and angel mommies

I wanted to take a moment to thank everyone for the happy Mother’s Day texts, calls, cards, and messages.  It truly is a blessing to be the mom to this little miracle.

One thing I did notice is there were a lot of people wishing me a happy “first” Mother’s Day and while I do really appreciate just the thought I just wanted to let you know that this is not my first Mother’s Day.  I’ve been a mother for quite some time now.  I’ve been a mother since I had the desire to have a child of my own.  If you ask my grandfather, he will tell you I had the word “Mom” written on my forehead for the last 6 years as he knew that is what I was destined to be.  I’m also a mother to three wonderful angels who I think about and feel every single day.  Even though these babies found their home in heaven, I am still their mother…they just were too perfect to be placed here on earth but rather they will play with all the other angel children up in heaven and will be waiting at the gates for me to finally hold them when it is my time.

My little Joey is a true gift and I can’t wait for him to call me mama.  I will protect him from as much evil in this world as I can.  I will teach him the true meaning of family.  I will show him what love is and how you express it.  I have the arms to hold him and hug him, the chest for him to calm in, the lips to give him tons of kisses, and the neck for him to snuggle his head up to but I also have a heart that houses his angel brothers and the dreams they always find their way in to and that is why this is NOT my first Mother’s Day.

Mother’s day is not about physically birthing a child, it’s the emotion, the physical bond, the love, and the fight.  There are many mothers in this world that, although they did physically birth a child, do not deserve to be called a mother while there are so many women who would give anything to be able to do what they did while the bad “mothers” take it for granted and abuse/neglect/take advantage of their child[ren].  These women who yearn to be in their shoes are the real mothers because of their desire.  They dream of what their future child may look like, how they would raise them, and what kind of a man/woman they would turn out to be.  They swear by their last breath that they would give anything, including their own life, to just be called “mommy” by their very own child.  I know this because I was there for five years.  Jealous.  Angry.  Depressed.   All while still dreaming of my future and staying strong because I knew I couldn’t give up on my dream no matter how many times I was knocked down, no matter how many failed IVF cycles and no matter how many times I heard the words “I’m so sorry, there’s no heart beat anymore.”  It takes a strong person to be able to keep on pushing to fight for their dream and while some may eventually achieve it, there are still so many who are left empty handed and broken.  These women deserve to be recognized for their strength especially on a day that many suffer through but put on a strong face so as not to raise attention to themselves because they have never been able to let anyone in on the pain they go through on a daily basis.

I would like to wish all the angel mommies and those trying so desperately to have a child to hold a happy Mother’s Day as well…you have a love that will never be replicated and that makes you a mom as well.  I know today is a sad day for you but you also deserve to celebrate because you ARE an amazing mom.  A strong mom.  A mom that has so much love for something that can’t be seen with the eye…yet.  You are a mom that can put on a strong face for others and help comfort others because you have had one hell of a hard ride and you know real pain.  Raw emotional pain.  Pain that, to me, was far worse than childbirth.  Infertility and child loss are shoes I wish no one to ever have to wear but you wear them…and so do I.  So happy Mother’s Day to you as well.  Celebrate your strength and your love because you deserve to be recognized, too, as a mother in her own right.  A mother of what was, what has yet to be, and unfortunately of what may never be…but still with the same desire, the same love, and the same strength that others should be envious of.

I also wanted to share a special poem with the angel mommies as I read it religiously even when it is not Mother’s Day…sometimes I just need to read it to get through a particularly difficult day.

What Makes a Mother
By Jennifer Wasik 
Written with love for all the Mother’s missing their babies  
I thought of you and closed my eyes
and prayed to God today
I asked, “what makes a Mother”?
And I know I heard Him say,
A Mother has a baby,
This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a Mother
when your baby’s not with you?”Yes you can!”, He replied
with confidence in His voice,
“I give many women babies,
when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime
and others for a day
And some I send to feel your womb
but there’s no need to stay.”I just don’t understand this God,
I want my baby here.”

He took a breath,
and cleared His throat,
and then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
what your child is doing here.

If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,
“We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here!”
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quick
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
but I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
on her pillow’s where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
Mommy don’t be sad today
I’m your baby and I’m here.”

So you see my dear sweet one,
your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
and this is where they’ll stay.
They’ll wait for you with Me
until your lesson is through.
And on that day that you come home
they’ll be at the gates for you.

So now you see
what makes a Mother
It’s the feeling in your heart
It’s the love you had so much of
right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize
that you are a Mother until their time is done.
They’ll be up here with me one day
and know you’re the best one.

51_Baby Cutri

An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. Then whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth" ~author unknown ~ I love you very much, my angels

An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth. Then whispered as she closed the book “too beautiful for earth” ~author unknown ~ I love you very much, my angels