So this is colic? Happy Birthday to me!

Over the last few weeks my handsome baby has grown more uncomfortable and fussy no matter what we tried to do to help.  He grew ever more frustrated as the day went on and would be a semi normal happy baby by morning only for the whole process to start all over again.  The severity increased daily.  Sometimes he would have bouts of inconsolable crying that made me so upset that I could literally do nothing to comfort him.  We tried changing him, feeding him, burping him, rocking him, holding him tightly, bouncing on the yoga ball, going for walks, karo syrup to help move his bowels, gripe water, gas drops, switching formulas, colic drops, all with no results (and all under doctor’s recommendations).  Yesterday was by far the worst day of them all.  I couldn’t handle all the crying and was inconsolable myself…ugly faced crying trying to figure out how to help my baby.

He went for a drive and finally passed out, woke up again, ate in the car, and passed out again.  The doctor said the word I didn’t want to hear, colic, and recommended that we do another formula switch, this time to Nutramigen and so far he’s doing well on it…but it hasn’t even been a day yet and these switches take a week or so to see the full effects.  I already have a much happier baby but that can all change if his little tummy doesn’t agree with the switch.  I thought he may have reflux but since he is not spitting up this was dismissed by his doctor.

Anyone ever try to get a prescription for formula?  I’ve heard that if this is what works for him, and since it is so darn expensive and is considered a formula for allergies, that we can get a prescription for it and insurance would help pay for it since it is so freaking expensive!  I have no idea how to proceed with that, obviously obtain the prescription first, but where do I buy formula from?  How does insurance chime in and pay?  Is it reimbursement?  That’s where I am lost.

I’m just hoping that the inconsolable crying is over because it really broke my heart!  He woke up great today, pooped twice already, ate and burped like a champ and has been sleeping soundly most of the day.  I was actually able to vacuum and steam the living room and dining room while he slept and am taking a breather right now…I can’t overwork myself on my birthday!


EDIT: don’t mind my appearance, I literally woke up like that…so that’s me, hair a mess, teeth unbrushed, and a finally content baby sleeping on my chest after his morning feeding.

Eat, Sleep, Poop and Repeat! Baby C’s first month.

I can’t believe it’s been a month since baby made his overly dramatic entrance into this world!  What a crazy last 4 weeks it has been between being separated from him, finally getting to officially meet him in a coherent state of mind, taking him home, having to return him to the NICU, bringing him home AGAIN, learning how to take care of him, and finding out that my boobs don’t know how to boob.  There’s been happy days and sad days, crazy days and calm days, days with no poop and days with more poop than any one person can handle.  I wouldn’t trade any of these days for the world because at the end of the day, the little man who built this new and much more exciting roller coaster we are currently riding is our son.  It’s been so many years since we embarked on the first roller coaster and I’m happy to say that the ART/IVF ride is officially closed for maintenance…it may be reopened again in the future but only time will tell as that was one of the scariest rides I have ever been on in my entire life.

So where do I start?  A lot has happened in the last month that it is hard to find a good place to begin explaining this new chapter of my life.  I am now an Earth Mommy!  I have had lots of experience changing diapers so that was no biggie to me, but to Joe it was a little scary at first…I’m happy to say that he QUICKLY adapted.  He still has some incidents of getting pee everywhere or just last night baby pooped mid diaper change (it was HILARIOUS btw) but he’s a diapering champ right now as long as he remembers to grab the pee pee tee pee and look for his facial expression telling him he’s pooping lol – but at 2am who’s really paying attention?  By the way, Darling…if you’re reading this…I cleaned the poop off the wall.  You’re welcome.

Speaking of 2am…this baby is a great sleeper for his age.  From the beginning he did two 4 hour stretches back to back at night, 2am being the wake up to get changed and fed time so it’s not like we are up all hours of the night.  We’ve had a couple 5-6 hour stretches mixed in there, too!  There was only one bad night that he just wouldn’t calm down and fall asleep, but it was because of gas and the formula he was on causing him to be a little backed up.  Yes, I said formula…remember I said my boobs forgot how to boob?  I know breast is best but that didn’t work out the way I wanted to so please don’t judge.  At baby’s 2 weeks of age my boobs just decided they had enough and threw in the white breast pad.  They couldn’t deal.  After never having that skin to skin right after delivery, being separated from him for 27 hours after delivery, the nurses preventing me from seeing him as much as I wanted, never being taught how to use a breast pump rather one just being thrown at me in the hospital, going home without baby, finally getting baby home and being told we need to make sure he eats and poops to help with the jaundice (which meant I had to pump and bottle feed to ensure he was taking in enough milk), him returning to the NICU because of increased jaundice, and all the stress I went through, my boobs just said “FU” and gave up.  I was REALLY upset at first, I felt like a failure to my baby…but now I see it as a blessing in disguise.  The formula they had him on in the NICU helped him get better, now we can closely monitor his eating and expulsion and he sleeps longer than with breast milk.  We had a bout of constipation where we had to incorporate dark karo syrup to help move things along (1 tsp mixed in with his formula per doctor’s orders) but we had to do it every day because he could never get things going on his own and the karo caused explosions which I can’t imagine was comfortable at all for baby.  I felt so bad.  So we changed him to GentleEase and that’s been amazing.  He’s eating regularly and pooping on his own!

The first 2 weeks of baby’s life he did not do a lot of anything but eating, sleeping, pooping, and peeing…he was pretty calm and rarely made a peep.  The third week he was a little more alert and gaining his muscle strength.  So many people told us we had a very strong baby!  In the fourth week he really started to get more attentive and is now awake a lot more during the day.  He’s been pretty gassy so the awake part has it’s fair share of crying but we’ve discovered some ways to remedy that.  Laying on his belly for tummy time is a good gas relief, as is working his legs like a bicycle.  This morning I discovered that having him stand up (not all babies will be able to do that this young but his leg muscles are incredible) helps him push more air out and that helps with the fussiness.  He’s also a HUGE fan of the yoga ball and loves when I bounce on it with him in tow.  I swear he’s going to make me a smaller size than before I was pregnant…I ordered my bridesmaid dress on Saturday and I had to order two sizes down from my pre-pregnancy dress size from this particular store!

Yesterday we had his 1 month check up and he weighed in at 9lb7oz and was measured at 22 inches.  That’s 3 inches taller than his birth height and 2lbs 6oz more than his birth weight.  Although being a very early “full term” baby, he’s measuring quite high on the growth charts already!  I have a feeling he’s going to be a tall dark and handsome man!  He also has this bruise-like spot that goes across his butt since birth and it turns out it is not a bruise, it is called a Mongolian Spot and is very common for babies with a darker complexion and lightens as he gets older.  It is already a little lighter but it should be pretty invisible in a few years.  That’s his Italian complexion coming through.  He is already so much tanner than me and it makes me so jealous…he definitely didn’t inherit my skin tone!  The older he gets the more he looks like his daddy but I see my nose and maybe my upper lip on him…the only thing I hope is he gets my hair!  I want to see dark curls on him!

Bath time is interesting lol.  We had to wait until he was almost 3 weeks old to give him his first real bath because his umbilical cord just did not want to fall off.  It took forever!  It was a really thick cord, too. His circumcision healed before his cord fell off!  He hated his first bath even though we made the bathroom SO warm to keep him happy but then learned that putting a towel under him so he feels secure and not slippery helps as well as draping a warm washcloth over his front while bathing him to help him feel warm and safe.  Those have been VALUABLE tricks and he has not screamed during bath time since…but the transition of going INTO and OUT OF the bathtub has been a little touchy lol.  He just does not like to be naked.  Once I get him in his towel he starts to calm down and we rock a little while drying and he settles down and knows it is time to eat and go to bed.  He’s such a good boy when it comes down to knowing what comes next in the order of things to do…I recently adjusted his eating schedule, rather than upping his intake to keep up with his growth I just increased the frequency and literally 2 feedings and he was already adjusted like a clock!  He was at 4 oz every 4 hours and rather than upping the feeding by an ounce I changed the feeding to every three hours and that allows for him to sleep a little longer at night by feeding more throughout the day.  Last night it worked like a charm and he did a 5 and 4 hour stretch back to back.

There’s so much that has happened it is hard to think of what to write!  I guess I’ll just have to write more frequently when I discover something new or learn a new trick with baby!  I’m also going to transition this blog from an infertility blog to a “what happens when you beat infertility”/”Mommy” blog…I just have to figure out a way to make the transition seamless so bear with me as I try to play with WordPress 🙂

This child is already loved by so many people, but who can resist him?  He’s fucking adorable!

He has taken two trips to Scranton already to meet my family and be spoiled with cuddles and kisses!  I do feel alone sometimes, though.  I can’t be in Scranton all the time and we don’t get much company here.  It just makes me homesick, that’s all.  I have my little family now and that’s all I need…well…I’d really like to win the lottery and move my new little family and the rest of my family somewhere warm 🙂

Here is baby’s first monthly picture!  Enjoy while I figure out this whole mommy thing!

1 month

The last 3 weeks …

…have been quite the busy ones!  I have a post in the works…well in my brain at the moment…that I’d like to get written this week about how my first 3 weeks as a mom to an earth baby has been.  The ups and downs, the boobs forgetting how to boob, melt downs and just plain old loving bliss it is to hold my baby.  For now I’ll leave you with a picture I took this morning that just makes me feel all warm and gushy inside ❤️❤️