I’m officially 5 weeks pregnant today (according to when I started my treatments). On Friday at 1:30 I will be seeing my babies for the first time and possibly getting an actual due date! At this point I can have 8 in there and I would be happy as pie, I want whatever I am given, anything we get is a blessing. I think I heard the nurse say I get to see the babies a few times before I graduate from my RE’s office…I hope that’s true! The strange part is I feel fantastic…I’m not really feeling sick at all, I have gagged a few times but that’s about it. I am falling asleep noticeably earlier…Joe keeps telling the babies they are whooping my butt but I only feel exhausted when I eat…other than that I feel fantastic. It is still wayyyy early to feel anything more than that, though. I don’t think morning sickness usually takes its affect until at least 6 weeks when there is lots of hcg in the system.
I am scared over everything…I want to keep these babies safe and sound and every little thing is scaring me! I don’t want to sneeze too hard, I don’t want to gag any more, I don’t want to accidentally bump my belly off of anything…I don’t want to eat the wrong thing or drink the wrong thing…I’m scared to death. I have heard that this is a normal reaction for people who have gone through ART because we have gone through so much to get to this point we don’t want anything to happen.
I am so in love with these babies already. I can honestly say I am STILL in shock, this is so surreal. More people have cried for me than I did when I found out…I had literally 1 tear. I have a feeling that on Friday there are going to be water works when we finally get to see them! But I feel majorly protective already, I am constantly holding my lower abdomen, I don’t want them harmed…I don’t know what they look like or how many are in there or anything about them at all but I love them very much. I loved them before they even existed and having them grow inside me is just amplifying it. This is going to be the longest week ever until I get to see them. There’s no more blood work since I am over 1,000 mIU/ml (1,128 was the measurement of my 4th and Final Beta)
And to end this…here’s the first of many pictures of my progress…I’ve asked Joe to take a pic each Saturday. Now I just have to learn how to stand so I don’t look awkwardly square lol…maybe I should set up the tripod and use my transmitter on my cell phone to see how I look before the picture is taken…minor details…but without further ado, here’s a picture of me at 4 weeks & 4 days 🙂
Here’s a mirror shot so you can see I am definitely not awkwardly square lol!